the way of your cross

Jesus, you gift each of us with a unique journey.  My deepest sorrow and greatest joy result from traveling this journey with you.  That is the way of the cross.  It is the agony and the ecstasy.  I spend many a moment contemplating and trying to be faithful to the course while simultaneously wishing desperately I had been gifted with someone else’s travel plans.  My current life is a result of hundreds of choices made while trying to be true to your call.  My deepest inner conflict comes from the gnawing feeling that I somehow heard you wrong or went off track and did my own thing.  I pray to be at peace with the choices I have made thus far and for a deep inner peace to accompany present and future choices.  

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