leaning in

Our pattern is so painfully familiar.  I disrespect your need for closeness and sleep. You pull away.  I reach out in attempt to find you but nothing is there...you have retreated into the safe confines of your shell.  I feel the sting of your absence and am left feeling alone as a result.  Ouch.  I don’t know how to find you again...what I need to regain your attention or favor.  I heed the call for time and patience.  I rediscover the need for self love and the capacity to love selflessly that emerges from that simple yet strangely challenging and powerful act.  I find the courage to lean in when my impulse is to run away.  You emerge to meet me there.  

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